Bittersweet

I am looking forward to picking up my husband in the morning but I am already sad that he has to leave again. I shouldn't be thinking about his departure already but I can't help it. I fear this next goodbye will be harder than the first. We had a date in mind that he would return so even though he was leaving for several weeks-- we knew it wouldn't be long. Now, we don't know when he will return again. This time, Avery will know that when he says goodbye it isn't just for the day... and I'm worried this will be more difficult for her.

This week will fly by with him here. I don't know what to expect...the girls and I have our own routine (of sorts) but he will come home remembering the routine we had when he left.. it will be interesting. I hope we can just relax a few days so the time doesn't fly by.

Christmas!

Well last year didn't feel much like a traditional Christmas should feel. We checked out of the hospital sometime after noon after spending 4 nights there delivering Avery. I'm so excited for a Christmas when Avery can get caught up in the Santa fun of things. Right now she just loves bows on gifts but maybe in the morning she will be thrilled to see brand new toys sitting under the tree from Santa. The holidays seem like they will be so much more fun with a baby/child to enjoy them with. I am now starting to understand why so many people look forward to seeing their families during the holidays.

It is hard to believe that this is Avery's SECOND Christmas. Time just flies...